a drive into my past

I took the longest drive along the cost .. starting from shwikh beach all way to el kout in fehaheel .. i guess i needed some time alone .. or maybe i hoped that i'd feel something that i've been missing .. it was a drive into the past indeed .. along that cost .. i passed many of my precious memories .. places ... faces ...

Sobah hospital .. our 1st sunrise together .. that night .. wow i cant even put it into words .. those feelings are so overwhelming .. to be able to watch you as you fall asleep .. that angelic face of yours .. that silly smile of you when ur sleeping .. that sunrise ... i guess it was the beginning of the end...

shwikh's beach.. that day .. as the sun was setting .. i closed my eyes and i kissed my loneliness away ... and in the same time, you were kissing me ''goodbye'' ...

Blajat .. behind that Hill .. two lovers ... safe.. away from the world .. but not away from you .. not safe with you .. i should have known better than to write our future in the sand ..

No5tha Restaurant ... although i really really hated the food, i dont know why, i felt so close to you on that day .. hmm maybe because we were one, u know stuck eating the same ewwwie food, hehehe ..

Elkout : i'm not even gonna start talking about it ... that fountain ... that place ..
'' our place '' it sure don't feel the same without you ..

these memories will always hunt me .. but i'll keep on running away from them ...
i know i loved you enough but i also know that i could have loved you more ..
i know this wont change a thing .. you'll still be gone today even if ive given you all the love in the world coz you never really loved me ..

but i wish i loved you more ... for my sake...

What am I?

i'm a little bit confused about my self;
i'm not interested in guys at all , they make me feel nothing!
and girls don't turn me on or whatsoever
but i did fall in love with a girl .. we had a thing going on but never reached the physical level .. atleast not from my side ...

does that make me gay ?